Title: Lost and Found
Warnings: Self-esteem and weight-related issues.
Word Count: 47,000
Disclaimer: None of this is true.
Summary: Jensen Ackles is a shy, overweight songwriter whose body issues have prevented him from forming any real personal connections, and at thirty, he’s still unsure of his sexuality, and still a virgin. But when he signs up for an experimental obesity research program, he meets Jared Padalecki, a stunningly sexy fitness guru who slowly but surely changes Jensen’s life.
“And when I look at you, I see everything else. Because this?” Jared grabs a handful of flab on Jensen’s belly and this time, amazingly, Jensen doesn’t flinch. He’s exhausted and overwhelmed and it’s just not worth it. “This is temporary. It’s like,” Jared opens his eyes wide. “It’s like you’re wearing a weird shirt or something. A horrendous shirt, like polyester with a not-at-all-ironic disco collar and like, embroidery or fringe or something. And sure, maybe it’s not perfect, maybe it’s awful, but if I can just get it off you, you’ll be so—”
He trails off, staring at Jensen in the mirror, earnest eyes willing him to understand. And the crazy part is that Jensen is starting to think that maybe he does understand. That, for the first time, Jared is making sense.
Jared sees people change their bodies all the time. Even Jared himself went from being built like a blade of grass to being built like a fucking truck. Given his experience, his perspective is totally skewed to look past the physical and see what else is there. It’s— Jensen doesn’t know anyone else like Jared.
“And the shirt, it’s—it’s more than ugly, it’s killing you! It’s like, poisoned or something. Or strangling you!” Jared’s full-on flailing now, arms flying through the air near Jensen’s head. “But it’s not like, superglued on or anything. It’s got buttons! Snaps! All you need is some help getting it undone and then it will slip right off and—” Jared pauses, blinks, and takes a breath, “—and I might be taking the ugly poisonous shirt analogy a bit too far.”
It’s unfair, really, that Jared is so fucking cute.
“For the first time in a long while, I see a possibility of friendship.”
“The best thing about acting is that I get to lose myself in another character and actually get paid for it… It’s a great outlet. I’m not really sure who I am - it seems I change every day.”
does anyone have that picture of oscars that were designed to look like the movie that won best picture that year?
man in the span of one day i lost like 5 followers i’m sorry